I finally figured it out, I thought that girls were always looking for the BBD. That is The Bigger Better Deal and now I know exactly what that is, and how it feels to be part of this twisted little game that they like to play, and it’s not as much fun to be involved now that I figured it out.
After a bunch of texts back and forth between a girl and myself it all became so clear. I wasn’t involved because I was Mr. Right I was involved because I was Mr. Right Now. Don’t get me wrong, being Mr. Right Now works for me because, at least for now, I’m getting some.
It’s just a real kick in the nuts, to be just a stop on the path until a better man comes along. That might take a while, or it could happen the very next time she logs into the Facebook or walks to the corner store. I figured it out, at the right moment, before she found him. With that knowledge, I gain power. The power of “I don’t care” is a really strong motivator in life.
The power to be myself without exception, to be aloof and cocky, to voice my opinions and beliefs without hesitation. Without caring about what she might think or disapprove of, I have gained myself. Since moving on is going to happen no matter what, I am free of the responsibility of having to watch myself in case I make a mistake, for I surely will.
“Waiting watching the clock, It’s four o’clock, It’s got to stop, Tell him, take no more, She practices her speech, As he opens the door, she rolls over, Pretends to sleep as he looks her over, She lies and says she’s in love with him………..Can’t find a better man………” These are the words of Eddie Vedder, lead singer of Pearl Jam and they explain the situation perfectly. Of course Pearl Jam wont let me display their video on here ( They actually told me not to) Note: Fuck Pearl Jam