I Still have the sign, written on a piece of beer case carboard in black felt, my mission statement, three words that say everything, I DON’T CARe . When this girl would bring up silly things, I would just point at the sign, and my point was made.

This made me laugh this morning when I reflected on a great moment in my life where I just didn’t care. I cared about a few things like the Pittsburg Penguins and a couple other things but not many.

Its the part of me that I really like is the fact that I really DONT CARe.

Phil Collins nailed it with, I don’t care anymore thanks Youtube.

The World Has Gone Crazy.

Crazy world and sure to get crazier in 2021. Is everyone lost their kindness and replaced it with hate? Sure seems like it to me, everywhere I go everyone is showing signs that their ready to explode at any moment. From the guy driving 2 feet from my bumper on the freeway to the young man in the beer store that can’t measure 6 feet if his life depended on it, and with the Covid-19 it just might.

The whole Covid-19 situation has caused a lot of stress in a lot of people and it seems to be getting worse as the days move into 2021. There is only 25 more hours left in 2020, the worst year in our history. I can’t wait for 2021 because it comes after 2020 and most of us didn’t have as much fun as we should have.

Twenty Twenty One will be either one of the best or one of worst years of all our lives. It’s up to us to decide what we choose to think and what actions we do. Let’s remember the goodness in ourselves and show it to others. I know that for me this will be the best year yet. I hope to have the time of my life. Time of your life is the perfect video today. You gotta love Youtube

I Figured it out.

I finally figured it out, I thought that girls were always looking for the BBD. That is The Bigger Better Deal and now I know exactly what that is, and how it feels to be part of this twisted little game that they like to play, and it’s not as much fun to be involved now that I figured it out.

After a bunch of texts back and forth between a girl and myself it all became so clear. I wasn’t involved because I was Mr. Right I was involved because I was Mr. Right Now. Don’t get me wrong, being Mr. Right Now works for me because, at least for now, I’m getting some.

It’s just a real kick in the nuts, to be just a stop on the path until a better man comes along. That might take a while, or it could happen the very next time she logs into the Facebook or walks to the corner store. I figured it out, at the right moment, before she found him. With that knowledge, I gain power. The power of “I don’t care” is a really strong motivator in life.

The power to be myself without exception, to be aloof and cocky, to voice my opinions and beliefs without hesitation. Without caring about what she might think or disapprove of, I have gained myself. Since moving on is going to happen no matter what, I am free of the responsibility of having to watch myself in case I make a mistake, for I surely will.

“Waiting watching the clock, It’s four o’clock, It’s got to stop, Tell him, take no more, She practices her speech, As he opens the door, she rolls over, Pretends to sleep as he looks her over, She lies and says she’s in love with him………..Can’t find a better man………” These are the words of Eddie Vedder, lead singer of Pearl Jam and they explain the situation perfectly. Of course Pearl Jam wont let me display their video on here ( They actually told me not to) Note: Fuck Pearl Jam

December First Excellent!

I happy it’s December First as another November is over. The countdown to Christmas starts and all the little who’s in Whoville suddenly started to cheer as the know that the real hero of December was Santa Clause in 25 Days.

Well I don’t know about that part but it was a real nice day today. Sunny and just enough crisp air to keep ones attention. Stillness broken by the thunder of trains every 20 to 30 mins. Twenty-one days left in fall and by looking up the mountain I can see the snow line and it will move up and down til it reaches town.

I am so looking forward to Christmas this year. Just 25 days away from here and I’m going to celebrate each one. Just being alive is reason enough to get into the whole human thing. Were all in this together, so we should enjoy the good parts of life. Christmas is the best time for the little who’s in whoville to be a who. We should follow their lead, but we won’t.

I will follow the path Jesus has laid out for me, and enjoy the next 25 days just a little more than the rest. Pearl Jam Alive is todays Youtube video its live and unplugged.

It’s no Stonehenge!

Went to a small gathering last night (3 people) and what a blast. Several days before, I had played What’s the Meaning of STONEHENGE by YELVIS for them. The video came with a story of how when searching for STONEHENGE on youtube there was this band YELVIS in the search results.

I thought it strange that this band from Norway would be included in search results for STONEHENGE in England. Of course, I clicked on it and was pleasantly surprised by the video, well done and the words were all about the greatest henge of all STONEHENGE.

So last evening one girl put on a song of her choosing and commented that she really liked it. When it was about half over, the other girl looked at me and said “It’s no STONEHENGE” and we all burst out laughing. Of course its the greatest henge of all because it’s the only one.

With STONEHENGE on my mind all morning how could I not share both the video and my observations on how and why it came to be one of my favorite videos. First and last on Youtube STONEHENGE.

Today I’m a Free Agent

What kind of person would be your friend and lover one day and totally hate you the next? One little thing goes wrong and they do a complete 180 and now I’m the bad guy? The truth is, I’m not the bad guy here, never was.

This girl is in fact a petty person and sooner or later there was going to be something that she didn’t like, there had to be, because that’s her game. All talk but no walk. You know the type, they talk the good talk, yet always fail to deliver.

This kind of girl is trouble because she has turned her eyes away from what matters and focused on what doesn’t matter. The result is the rest of us are immobilized by their obsession with the insignificant.

This girls pettiness has made her dangerous because she appears to be only a nuisance instead of what she really is, a health hazard. My health was affected for sure because in only a couple days I feel more energized and appreciate being alive way more. I know I’m very lucky to be where I am, thank you Jesus.

This is the kinda video that might show a little of what I’m saying, I love it! And I really do love it! thanks Youtube

Like An Old Man

Like an old man is how I feel this morning. Like an rested old man who woke up with a dog instead of a girl. When I woke up I slid my hand across to, what I expected to be my partner, and I thought ” What ta heak is going on here? ” as rubbed what I thought was the person next to me.

Once I realized that it was not a person, it was in fact, Starvin Marvin, my dog. How in the heak did she get into the room when I clearly closed the baby gate before I went to bed. Then I realized what happened, the person that was supposed to be there, had written a note and left. How embarrassing for me and her. I had made a promise the night before, and I would have kept it, if they would have been willing to try things my way.

What was I thinking in the first place? No one wants to try things my way, not even one. I guess I’m stuck in my ways like an old man. Maybe, I was hoping for more than I should have this morning. I woke up with the wrong star and feeling great, well rested and looking forward to church and the week ahead. I am alright with being a old man, as it was one of my goals to become one, but now that the hard choices have made themselves, my role is a lot easier.

My role will now be focused on becoming a really old man and, for me that’s twenty two years, so I got a few years to go. One thing I am not going to do is, give my thoughts and feeling to those who believe that this life is all about them. These are petty people and I have no time for them.

My question is, how can I move forward when I get so much resistance from behind. The truth is, I can’t, and that leaves me stuck where I am or move forward alone. I will think about it, ok thought about it, and even though, I don’t want to be alone, for now I have to be. I cant waste anymore time on the unbelievers who, are unwilling to even look at the other side of anything.

I’m just an old man trying to become an even older man, and you know what, I love where I am and where I’m going. I’ll find someone some day who shares my outlook and my passion for what I’m doing. I just haven’t found her yet. Nobody understands an old man like me, except Neil Young on Youtube

I was asked What Doin?

It goes without saying this is a really important question. By answering it you have taken your attention away from Doin to thinkin about it. The pause to reflect, has changed the whole Doin into Doin Something else. What Im saying is, whatever your Doin I hope your happy. My rule #342 is —————> Don’t Think, Do it. This is What’s up thanks Youtube

Road Trip in a Pandemic

Sweet is my only thought as I unwind after returning from the city from a supply run. The morning went like clockwork. Showed up to try and talk to the crown council @ 9, no good she is working remotely. I check in with the courthouse @9:08 and head to the car to wait. 9:40 I arrive back at the courthouse and because I was ready to go, was the next case called. Set the trial for Feb. 19 @ 9:30 and I requested the criminal record of the crowns witness.

The afternoon was a lot crazier as I almost ran over a psychopath that didn’t seem to like it very much. He was going to go all crazy and kill me, but I’m not very tolerant of those I believe to be human trash like this greaseball. Good thing for both of us a third party was able ease back the tension because it was intense.

You know the old saying Don’t take a knife to a gun fight? I was thinking what if I brought a car to a gun fight? I watched this guy go from just being in the way, to pulling shit out that shouldn’t e pulled out unless your going to use it kind of logic to walking down the road like nothing happened. I was thinking that there is no way I could miss him from here. Seventy to Eighty kph could rip him in half leaving only his feet in his boots in the middle of the road.

Good thing I don’t like humans or I would have removed the parasite right then and there. This is why the humans are so messed up, too many retards are allowed to walk the earth. Then the drive home way perfect because I think one apricates it more after a deranged asshole try’s to kill you. I really do hate the humans OMG. If he jumped off the bridge he would sink like a stone. From Youtube video below.